When I’m Old Can I go Home?

I needed to read this again today. This journey is so hard. I wish I could protect Mama from all the hurt and pain. I wish I could protect myself and my family from losing Mama little by little. But I take comfort in knowing that God is with us. And He is with Mama. Always.

God's Grace and Mom's Alzheimer's

Last night Mama asked, “When I’m old, can I go home?”

And though I half smile at the innocent wonder of her words, I ache inside, as I try to grasp her feelings. She’s in the house she’s lived in for over fifty years—but she wants to go home.

She often hollers out, “Mama! Mama, where are you?” It’s the most frequent cry of her heart.

And I try to imagine what it’s like to not know where you are and to be wanting your mama so desperately and unable to find her… and to have pain and not be able to explain it, and to have needs and not have the words to express to them.

I so want to comfort her and give her peace.

And then I read Psalm 139 this morning. I read about how God knows our thoughts and is acquainted with all our ways…

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2 thoughts on “When I’m Old Can I go Home?

  1. Eldon Haas says:

    I lost my mom Dec 11th and know each day she is in a better place. Your mom saying “can I go home” may mean to her heavenly home. It did my heart good in the next line you said she is in her home of over fifty years. Yelling mama is she searching for her mom whom she will be reunited with in heaven.

    It seems to me you have comforted her and are giving her peace. My only advice and I sure you all ready do this is hold her hand often, tell her how much you love her, and enjoy each moment with her here on earth. Hug and kiss her know you are doing your best. Take Care and Thinking of you and your mother.

  2. chermor2 says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss, Eldon. Thank you for your wise advice and care.
    ~Cheryl

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